I’m sick for 5 days now. Haven’t left the house, haven’t done anything real. Today parents found out about some stuff I kept quite there wasn’t the fuss I was hoping for but it was a wake up call for me on some level. I need to find something to do with my life because school depresses me, and I don’t know, everything else etc. etc. I want some big changes but I don’t know with what to do it, I want to be happy eventually but it seems to far away for me.
I wanted finally to talk with my mom for real but when I stated my issues - she didn’t understand, she was just like go do that or that, but I need help. And I said about how communication in our family sucks but mom was just like: “Why won’t you ask? etc.” ..but I have asked and I have gotten just short answers nothing REAL, it was the closest moment I have gotten to actual crying in years, I wish I could cry now.